Saturday, 1 March 2008

Live your last Day.

Yeah, my phone's gone.
For what?
for receiving a message which can be classified as 'tres tres personal question' or 'unnecessary shit' or 'how can you get messages like this??'
yeah, from a guy.
Dear Lord almighty. They read everything.
Breach of trust, know your limits, that kinda thing.
Not good.
Not happy. At all.
The heck, he's my best friend, I gotta be that open with one person, just one....
Not right, shouldn't be thinking like this, they say....
Huge argument.
Something happened again today morning, went a bit overboard again.....A bit over the lines again....It wasn't about the phone anymore, it was everything else, it was the way I am...
Why can't I just be happy huh? I have everything. Why not happiness?
I told mom today in the car, after I'm 20 I'm gonna live each day like it's my last....
Why after 20, she said?
Ok, but how can I do it now? there's something in me.....just not happy.
How would you do it if you were in Mumbai, in Dharavi? No phone, nothing.....
I dunno.....I'd find a broken water pipe and dance in it I suppose....
Then why can't you be happy now? It's just a state of mind you know....it just takes something small...
Phine, then. I'm gonna change. No more psychogiri...Live happy, turn the little sad switch off.
Find something to be happy about, every day.
Live like you're gonna die in an hour.
Sodden mess, I tell ya.
Question: How do you release your anger?

4 comments:

taurius1 said...

My stress buster? Walking.

The day I got news that my exam results were *ahem* slightly less than expected, I was totally devastated. And frustrated. A whole bunch of emotions were swirling in my head that I could do nothign with.

I walked all the way back home from college that day. Took me three and a half hours, but by the time I was home, I was thinking straight again. Well, not straight, I just wasn't thinking too many conflicting thoughts, too fast, all at once. :)

My all time favorite is to read a book. There's nothing that a good book can't chase out of my head.
But it's not too easy to always have a good book that I wanna read during *certain* moments in my life...

So.... another way I get away from the world is with music. If I'm not with anyone, I'm usually always listening to music. I find that life's too exciting to be without a background score...

Lastly, if nothign else works, I brew myself a shot of espresso, close the curtains, turn off all the lights, ya know... make the room pitch black, settle down in bed, play some trance, and enjoy the madness in my head.

Oh, and it always helps talking to someone about what's bugging you. Sometimes, even total strangers who have no idea who you are can offer wonderful insight about how to handle the world when it's treating you the way it is...

Take care.

ani said...

Anger..???

Agree with Taurius about walking around and Books. I kind of tend to listen to a particular song until the lyrics are etched at the back of my head and all I do is either think of the song or sleep.. Once the mind is a little clearer, positive thinking comes naturally...!!! There is a lot to life... Live each moment.. :)

♥bμşγ-ŵŗϊŧēŕ♥ said...

uh-oh..

have a talk with someone, crib it all out.

that's what i do anyway.

bluebutterfly said...

live like you are gonna die in a hour , hmm .... then there would be so many things i would have to do and say ....i would be real busy ... but nt to hamper teh happy bubble you are living in now ... all the living in the moment crap sucks ... not true ... nothing of it ... but then thats the way i see it

and as for the anger part ...
to say the least i get pretty angry, i ahve amazing amount of hatred for a person and everyhting she does just makes me more angrier ...
counting doesnt help .... it might if you are willing to count till a million ..

i just have to put in linkin park or maroon 5
cant find music ... i get wads of tissues or newspapers and tear them .... that really helps me
or just the old way of crying out in teh bathroom ... and after a while you get pissed off watching your red blotchy face in teh mirror and you get you ass outta teh bathroom and calm is restored ....