Thursday, 20 December 2007

Things i never knew...........

An offhand internet remark led to an angry message to me, thus sending me into a blazing fury first thing in the morning of what was gonna be an absolutely wonderful day.
It's still gonna be a wonderful day, the morning's gone past....
huh, a friend was mad at me over a misunderstanding, and i was worked up and blazing mad, and mom was trying to help with the sage advice, how "this is why relationships suck" and "guys are like that and they can't handle pressure and even though they have tough exteriors they're all senti inside"
she's perfectly right, of course. sorry to the guys.

and then when i remained blazing mad she started telling me about these friends of hers in college and halfway through her story i realised something...........
mom never talks about her college friends.

i said as much and then she said that in any conversation its just about me and dad, always me and dad, so sooner or later mom just got used to it and stopped talking.....
you know, that kind of thing makes me feel really bad............
and then she started talking, really talking, about how everytime she switched schools she' lose track of all her friends because they had no internet that time, and no phone, and no one really bothered to keep in touch.....she had friends of course but no friendships as intense as what i have.....(until she met kay's mom, of course.....they met at haffkine insti, and coincidentially landed up as NRIs out here in muscat, and thus started a 22 year friendship that stuck no matter what.)

it was pretty darn sentimental. at times like this i really have no idea what to say......my mom's so beautiful sometimes.....and yet sometimes that beauty fades into anger, or a sad smile, or frustration, or something............

man.............i wish i could be aware of what i do and what i say to her...............
mom, i love you, always will.

4 comments:

--xh-- said...

beautiful tribute to mom. me too have done this, mystiqe. "It's still gonna be a wonderful day, the morning's gone past...." good positve thinking :)
and yeah, guys r sometimes senti inside all teh tough outer shell.. :)

freudian slip said...

dunno which guy ur talking abt, dude must be incredibly good looking, i just noe it. and hes not all tough outside, senti inside, due to his extremely shallow nature, he has just one dimension,
of course, i dunno who the guy is, im just deducing all of this.

Bubbles of FireWhisky said...

gosh... how i wish i cd hv said all the things that were on my mind, talked to her and just told her that i loved her before she had to go... but then i guess you never miss the water until its gone...

very nicely written... and my regards to your parents...

Mystique said...

2 xh: and it WAS a truly wonderful day.

2 rushi: nah, not at all hot but is nice when he wants to be.and i think he just wants to believe that he has one dimension. he does get kinda senti but he'd never accept this fact.
and if you don't know who the guy is, how ever can you deduce so much huh?
ps if u actually don't know who it is then ur blonde.........

2 bubbles: always, always. i can't tell her all this to her face, because it's no use, next day i'll be brazen brat again. so i wrote. i told her that i wrote. she says she'll read it sometime.