Thursday, 13 December 2007

I'm living a lie?

Maybe i should start a journal..........
i did, once, but it was rather irritating.....
cause even then, i had this inability to verbalise my emotions..........
i think i still do..........
yeah but some things i never wrote anywhere.................i didn't want them to be true, didn't want to remember...........
still don't actually........
but yeah, maybe it would be a good idea to write it down instead of keeping it all inside........
and then someday i'll snap....as i've done oh-so-many times before....

13 comments:

--xh-- said...

we all r living lies - only the degree of lie varies... write it down, and keep it aside... like aprivate list... it will help you to vent out your anguish. me thinks you write pretty well...

bluebutterfly said...
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bluebutterfly said...

living a lie .... that we all are... in our little fantasy lie lands ... as for journal .... hmm nice thought ... but adequate precautions must be taken to keep it out of nosy little sisters hands ....and i think you are pretty good in writing and stuff so no worries there .

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plzdonttrythisathome said...

Well Is the Header inspired from me..?

Bubbles of FireWhisky said...

to some extent we all do it, dnt we? running away 4m certain situations n tryin our best nt 2 believe tat its real...

taurius1 said...

I tried writing down my thoughts, the way I see myself... I never had the courage to keep it up after three entries. >_<

It's so much more comfortable ignoring some things about myself. More so because noone else is being harmed by them.

But I still wonder if I'll ever see the day when I consciously take off the mask I wear to fae the world. :(

freudian slip said...

take t from sumone whos started a journal every new yrs, and stopped by jan15th, dont try to be all organised about it, do wht i do, uve seen my blue book, always keep it within reach, verbalise if and when u want to, or dont write at all, trust me, ull be filling it up in no time.

but yeah it is hard at first, to face urself and then introspect about just how fucked up u actually are, sorta hard. but fun all the same. i do it all the time, albeit the fact tht i have a propensity to be kind happy with my flaws. and tell them to ppl like u

Mystique said...

2 xh: yea i think i'll do that.....

2 butterfly: i don't have a sis, no no worries...

2 venky: nope....

2 bubbles: i know, its pathetic.....

2 taurius: but, you see, there are somethings that kep nagging me...................

2 rushi: yea i've seen *and snooped thru* ur blue book.....
yeah act thats wat i was plannin on doing, just carrying it around n writing when i felt like.....my earlier journals were more events than emotions....but this one has to be different....huh, i wish i'd had it on me today, i was at this place with the wind in my face, everyone around me but still so alone and so happy.......and i wanted to write so bad....but then something happened and i got all irritated n now the mood's gone.

Madhavi said...

Living a lie...
as humans v are bound to do that..coz tht makes us live....n u should write down whn u cant express verrbally it does help :)

taurius1 said...

Well... If something's bothering you, talk discuss it. With yourself, with your friend, or maybe with your pets. Pets make good listeners. :)

I've often had the most wonderful insights talking to random halfway across the globe. :)

Maybe the very fact that when you're talking to someone who doesn't know you, lets you tell them your story the way you see it. It's pretty much the same with a notebook, come to think of it. It's not gonna argue with you, and even if you DO get a conflicting view, you can always dismiss it, saying that the other person doesn't know you at all, and is in no position to judge you... :)

Work it out, if you can. Nagging type things that stay in the head tend to make me all depresses and obsessive compulsive about things after a while... Talk to someone about it. :)

Renovatio said...

Start it, carry it as long as you feel like, don't feel obligated to add to it.

Mystique said...

thanks all