they keep sayin (never shut up, do they?) that life isn the about of breaths u take in one moment, it's about the moments that take ur breath away. i'm sure the person who wrote this was inspired.but really, some of those breath-taking-away moments also lost me most of my lunch. yup, life's about moments like stepping on cat poo, cow dung and other animal secretions as well as moments like the one i have just before a race , the moment's i'll have on himalayan trek in june (weeeeeeee) totally.
people search long and hard for the meaning of life (why not look in a dictionary under L?). i think life is an experience.we are sent here simply to havethe experience of having lived.
um. teensy question to all those clairvoyants...the reincarnation thing? different people have different views about it.
the karmic thing...if i'm not good, will i be reborn as a cow? or even(horror) a banana plant?is that even possible?i think humans can be reborn only as humans. dont believe? read "many lives, many masters" by brian l. weiss
brilliant book.
also must read---freakonomics
Friday, 27 April 2007
Who am I (inspired by the question....it's not often ppl ask me dat...they ofen ask me...are u nuts!!??)
who am i?? good question.
am i the bouncy hyped whirlwind? or am i the depressed soul wandering the hallways like the ghost of who i was?am i one of these or am i both? i used to have different personalities for different people, and this disturbed me.now i find that it's all changed, and there's only one me.it's like a diamond (yep that's me..brilliant, sparking personality/wit, no modesty whatsoever) whose facets you can see only one at a time.i suppose i am all that and much more. i am a seething mass (not much of it) of contradictary thoughts and words. i am the power, i am the anger, i am the joy.
in short, i am my emotions.
and this, according to some people (mainly my mother and my mentor) is not good.
nooooo.... all it results in is weird behaviour, outbursts of anger, black eyes (not mine) and tears.
i rest my case (didnt know i had one.)
am i the bouncy hyped whirlwind? or am i the depressed soul wandering the hallways like the ghost of who i was?am i one of these or am i both? i used to have different personalities for different people, and this disturbed me.now i find that it's all changed, and there's only one me.it's like a diamond (yep that's me..brilliant, sparking personality/wit, no modesty whatsoever) whose facets you can see only one at a time.i suppose i am all that and much more. i am a seething mass (not much of it) of contradictary thoughts and words. i am the power, i am the anger, i am the joy.
in short, i am my emotions.
and this, according to some people (mainly my mother and my mentor) is not good.
nooooo.... all it results in is weird behaviour, outbursts of anger, black eyes (not mine) and tears.
i rest my case (didnt know i had one.)
Wednesday, 25 April 2007
imagination....worst weapon against yourself
i dont want to close my eyes
for fear of wat i'll see
my imagination is much worse
than wat's actually in front of me.
no really
dreams abt ku klux klan (i don even know much abt it) and zombie things n baby-eating pigs n guru all rolled into one is just NOT GOOD.
and i dont even watch horror movies.
that's one reason why.
for fear of wat i'll see
my imagination is much worse
than wat's actually in front of me.
no really
dreams abt ku klux klan (i don even know much abt it) and zombie things n baby-eating pigs n guru all rolled into one is just NOT GOOD.
and i dont even watch horror movies.
that's one reason why.
Down the drain, in the bin
i had a lot of really good writings abt popularity n council but i threw them away. this was after a pp(popular person) in my class asked to look at my notebook. cant risk it bein seen...i don wanna make enemies.
hm.
i wander lonely as a cloud....then someone brings me down 2 earth....
hm.
i wander lonely as a cloud....then someone brings me down 2 earth....
now i know
so THAT'S why they told me not to take science......
its just too much!!
i havent slept properly in a week, i keep 4gettin my homework (thats not new) and i have two worksheets to submit for sat, phy tut test tomoro. i m sposed 2 be in math tuts but she cancelled it (thank god 4 small mercies)
its just too much!!
i havent slept properly in a week, i keep 4gettin my homework (thats not new) and i have two worksheets to submit for sat, phy tut test tomoro. i m sposed 2 be in math tuts but she cancelled it (thank god 4 small mercies)
Sunday, 22 April 2007
mind...
the mind is a weird thing to have....at least mine is. it's very contradictory n so are my words.
in essence....i am not liked. i want to be liked. but i'm not willing to change myself in order 4 people to like me. bcoz i think i gotta b myself. n if ppl don lyk me 4 wat i am....wats d use? it's like livin a lie
~i'v bin livin a lie.....theres nothing insiiide~
~briiiiing meeeeeeeeeeeeee tooooooooooo liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiife~
so so symbolic.....very. bring me to life. actually all evanescence (evanessence?) songs r symbolic, beutiful, trance kind. not like those bubblegum pop kinda songs.
i realised i actually love rock. no korn no slipknot but metallica i like. i'm searchin 4 dis song dat i don no d name of. i only know d first bit of it coz i bunked skul one day 2 hear my frenz playin it...lovv it
later all
in essence....i am not liked. i want to be liked. but i'm not willing to change myself in order 4 people to like me. bcoz i think i gotta b myself. n if ppl don lyk me 4 wat i am....wats d use? it's like livin a lie
~i'v bin livin a lie.....theres nothing insiiide~
~briiiiing meeeeeeeeeeeeee tooooooooooo liiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiife~
so so symbolic.....very. bring me to life. actually all evanescence (evanessence?) songs r symbolic, beutiful, trance kind. not like those bubblegum pop kinda songs.
i realised i actually love rock. no korn no slipknot but metallica i like. i'm searchin 4 dis song dat i don no d name of. i only know d first bit of it coz i bunked skul one day 2 hear my frenz playin it...lovv it
later all
finally
after 4 hours of depression, crying (trust me u NEVA wanna c ur mom cry) n general madness consisting one phonecall n lot of unwanted mess....
i am finally ok. btr than i was. it isn worth it.
i had a lot of other posts abt election n stuff but the results r 2 depressin. sid predicted i'd lose both n i did. yay!! apparently ppl gravitate towards their own kind n i'm noone's own kind.
i miss rushi...he'd hav given me a big kick in the ass if he saw me cryin like i was yday. gud he isn here.
i am finally ok. btr than i was. it isn worth it.
i had a lot of other posts abt election n stuff but the results r 2 depressin. sid predicted i'd lose both n i did. yay!! apparently ppl gravitate towards their own kind n i'm noone's own kind.
i miss rushi...he'd hav given me a big kick in the ass if he saw me cryin like i was yday. gud he isn here.
Monday, 9 April 2007
speeeeeech
ahh!! our newly appointed V.P decides to speak.
"I want to be your FRIEND", he booms."I do not wish to call out anyone and embarass them....that boy there...you know i'm talking to you..please keep quiet."
The man is a walking contradiction, i tell you.
"Indiscipline will no longer be tolerated in this school. We wish u to cooperate with us, so that we can make this school a better place"
V.P talk for : do as i say or your schooling is ruined.
"Boy-Girl relationships are, from this day, NOT ALLOWED. i have seen all of you...you meet, you hug,,,physical contact is OUT. be friendly with everyone. i am broad-minded, i do not want to turn the school into a jail"
ummm......u mite just do it if you dont watch out.....
ok i know the man means well, but i don't quite know if his new strict regime will work.
child psych, 101, desperately needed.
"I want to be your FRIEND", he booms."I do not wish to call out anyone and embarass them....that boy there...you know i'm talking to you..please keep quiet."
The man is a walking contradiction, i tell you.
"Indiscipline will no longer be tolerated in this school. We wish u to cooperate with us, so that we can make this school a better place"
V.P talk for : do as i say or your schooling is ruined.
"Boy-Girl relationships are, from this day, NOT ALLOWED. i have seen all of you...you meet, you hug,,,physical contact is OUT. be friendly with everyone. i am broad-minded, i do not want to turn the school into a jail"
ummm......u mite just do it if you dont watch out.....
ok i know the man means well, but i don't quite know if his new strict regime will work.
child psych, 101, desperately needed.
First day, worst day
plan and elevation???
instead of giving us our timetable he's talking about plan and elevation, what HB and 2H stand for, scoring system in exams....
dude, as our class teacher, your priority is to make us a little less confused about our new system! which you are SO not doing.
what the hell
free period, and EVERYONE seems to have someone to talk to....except me.
duh
the girl who sat with me has moved to the back, where her posh friends are.
i sit, right in the middle of the class, like an island.
someone asks me what i'm doing.....ooh. someone cares?
god girl....enough self pity already
instead of giving us our timetable he's talking about plan and elevation, what HB and 2H stand for, scoring system in exams....
dude, as our class teacher, your priority is to make us a little less confused about our new system! which you are SO not doing.
what the hell
free period, and EVERYONE seems to have someone to talk to....except me.
duh
the girl who sat with me has moved to the back, where her posh friends are.
i sit, right in the middle of the class, like an island.
someone asks me what i'm doing.....ooh. someone cares?
god girl....enough self pity already
Thursday, 5 April 2007
Complicated numbers
i thought that square roots of negative numbers didn't exist. they dont. they're called imaginary numbers. strange concept....IMAGINARY NUMBERS....how do you calculate with them? oh, you cant! the calculations are imaginary! but in my tuition class we managed to manipulate these figments of imagination quite well. ah...higher math.what to say? some of it doesn't quite make sense. today is physics class. i wonder what i'll be exposed to there?
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